You know you can do whatever you want. Problem here is, you don't know what you want. I don't get the impression you've considered the alternatives, realistically looked at your situation, or know your options. You've repeated multiple times how you don't know if you have a problem and you "don't know what to do" and you can keep on repeating that as a means to not DO anything about this, instead stick with the familiar in what you DO know and keep on drinking. Your choice, to remain willfully oblivious to your options, or make an attempt to become informed about the REALITY of your situation. Once you have more information and take that bold move to look at what you're doing THEN you can make a decision. Otherwise you're just choosing to remain blissfully ignorant and stuck. There's so much to learn in listening to others OUTSIDE of your own isolated addict-thinking brain that's making you very sick. There's a healthy lot of caring and compassion and information and support and wisdom out there if you're WILLING to receive and consider it. Try being open to it, let it enter in and shed new light on your familiar old ways. Only then can positive change begin. Wishing you well, Jill.