I am sorry, but I cannot believe you are asking if you have a problem...
YOU HAVE LIVER FAILURE... IF YOU DRINK YOU COULD DIE... AND YET YOU CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HAVING A DRINK... ALCOHOL DESTROYS THE LIVER... or what you have left of it...
Hmmm lets see, life or death... to drink or not to drink?
This is like asking "Hmmm if I put a three bullets in a six round chamber and spin it and pull the trigger, I might die, but I really enjoy the excitement I get from it ... should I do it just one more time?"
Levi