In response to CindiR
I am sick of living this way. I really am glad you posted. It helps to know I am not alone.
I am very good a minimizing after the fact. When it is happening I am thinking this is it this is the last straw. Then I feel sorry for him or I feel like I made it seem worse than it was.
You are right this is my life and my kids life. I can't force them to live this way. It is so unfair that things have went so wrong when I used to have the perfect life and now it feels like it is gone. He took it all away by choosing to drink and treat us like we are his property.
The way you talk about what you want to teach your kids I feel the same way about.
I know continuing on this way is not. All the talks and teaching I do will not take away what he is slowly doing to them.
Thanks so much for your imput.
Last edited by refreshing34; 05-09-2006 at 01:14 PM.
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