It's hard to deal with an alcoholic parent.
My dad is now in full blown alcoholism.
It's been getting wrost and worst. i don't think he's going
to be a functioning alki much longer.
The insanity and chaos that I would had never dreamed of
of my parents.
There's really noting i can do. For my dad.
He said he's seeing professional help.
He health is affect now
His doctor pretty much suggested AA, but as most alki in denial
would do is deem that they're different or too good, too smart
for AA or recovery. Yet he fits all the symtoms, traits writen in the
AA big book to the key. He say he would go to meetings.
I even suggested to him different meetings that he could attend
that i didn't attend. I can't make him go.
My mother is in so much pain or turmoil..she's a codi to the max.
Seeing my mother run out of her home 2 a.m . in the morning
in tears telling my dad to leave her along, strikes me at home
also. The many , many nights of chaos living with my GF.
I know her pain and suffering. Yet how can a mother or parents
take suggestions for their son, who was deem to be the blacksheep
of the family or rather from my stand piont, the lost child.
My parents didn't listen or heard me as a child to begin with.
I don't belive they're going to start listening to me now.
My parents are not educated/informed or understand about the disease
of alcoholism. They are having a hard time accepting or coping.
I came into recovery since I was 22. I'm curently 39.
It just so happen that I was working on my childhood inventory.
As an adult in recovery. I'm able to see clearer.
It was hard, yet it was a break through for me.
I would ocasionally fall back into my old thinking, beliefs, behaviors.
I'm more awear of them. I try to work on myself to the best of my
abilty.
I just pray for my parents.