Mega glad the fence sitting has ended, I guess like Cynay said it may be even harded to stick to it. I decided to stop fence sitting as well, I made my decision b/c I've really been thinking about my future and my children's future. Someone asked me where I see myself in 10 years and I thought, "My God I will be sending Matthew (my 8 year old son) off to college." I can't imagine being able to do that, financially or other wise if I'm in the same place I am now. I decided I needed to make some serious changes. I also thought about when my son was in preschool and getting letters sent home about him discussing his dads drinking with his peers, I realized my daughter would be getting those same letters set home if it weren't for him (AH) being out of the house. I figure I'm on the right track with him being out of the house and it's time to move forward in the right direction. I can't afford to go backwards. Stay strong Mega, stay strong, I pray I do too!