*hugs*
Its a hard place to come too... but I think that is the hardest part. Making the choice.
From here on out its just a matter of perserverance (sp) and sticking to the decisions... coming to the decision was the hardest part for me. I completely understand too ... how awful to think about 10 years down the road and see the same or more then likely worse sh*# happening....
There are some really beautiful sunrises out there.... maybe its time to chase one .