Ang, I'm so glad to see what you wrote since yesterday. I was really scared and off-guard. It looks like a lot of people - including you and me - suffer from depression. Perhaps our years of boozing covered up what was really underneath - sadness, and it's coming out now, and we can finally "feel" it.
You make SOOOO many people on here laugh, babe. I've told you before that I read your "title" lines and start giggling. You were put on this earth for a reason, and I think you're doing a da** good job of it.
Life sucks sometimes, no one doubts that. But remember that at the end of this "fight" there is a rainbow. We just have to BELIEVE, have courage (and patience) and we'll find it one day. Until then, I'm here for you.
I hope you have a good day today. Sending you cyber hugs, and if I were next to ya, I'd tackle you to the ground w/ one. (and you know I would, too! I AINT AFRAID OF YOU!) Smile...
Love you,
DG