I Now have the time spent with myself and that keeps me content, happy, peaceful. If I'm ever to get what I was looking for??? well I think it might be where Brad Paisley sings of ~
When I get where I'm going
On the far side of the sky.....
when I get where I'm going
There'll be only happy tears
I will shed the sins and struggles
I have carried all these years
And I'll leave my heart wide open
I will love and have no fear