Fact is......
IF I made a decision to leave Squinty now, we would end up with shared parenting! It's my word against his in court. The kids would be subjected to his alcoholism half the time anyways, and then I wouldn't be there to shield them from the brunt of it. At least now, I can help the situation a little--divert him, if I have to during his worst times. It wouldn't be as ideal as it all sounds leaving him.