Hi Ben
Ben
You are so lucky to have a supporting family and girlfriend. Please be clean with them, tell them if you have used....they can help you prevent from making the same mistake again. Dont be afraid because they are there for you - u know that... dont be ashamed.
The people who love you are the people who you will probably get angry at first when you go through withdrawls but please understand that they want nothing but the best for you - mood swings are part of it.
After it is all over, and you know you have beaten it, you will feel so awesome, so alive and so in love with life.
THROW yourself into loving life ben, it will help you. "Just Do It".
:bun5
Oh and remember, tash Loves you incredibly, you are so special to her you will never know. She will always be by your side as long as you communicate with her...you could even write her a letter everyday-like a confession/progression letter, a diary. Tell her if youve used, tell her if youve done something to make you feel like you have reached your next goal or step to getting over this addiction. You dont have to say it, but if you write it you can get it all down and you know you wont miss a thing. She wont judge, the worst thing she will do is help! It will be painful for the next few steps but after that it will be pure (legal) ecstacy!
Love Conquers all Baby.