Thanks JG and lin,
I guess I just couldn't convince myself that if he slips, we could still be together... but I guess I am not giving him much room either. It's hard to decide what is acceptable and what is not. I WANT to just say that relapses are a part of his recovery and as long as he is motivated to want to keep working at it, I can live with that. BUT, my mind is not letting me accept it.
I guess I am still holding on to the anger a little bit.
I am also afraid to let my guard down - I have things working quite well right now thank you! If he slips, it'll put a kink in my plans!
Geesh, how pathetically codependant I am
... The control issues, the fear, the obsessiveness.
I am going to really let this sink in today - Oh oh! I have a meeting tonite
. I think I'll speak :p
Take care
Meg