Hi There "winelover"
You Are Not Alone, Thats For Sure. I Used To Call Myself "the Relapse Queen"
My Intentions Were Good, But Couldnt Make It Past 4 Days, Or A Week!!! Everytime I Went To An Aa Meeting, For About A Year, When They Asked 'is Anyone Here For Their 1,2,3 Meeting After Their Last Drink, I Would Always Raise My Hand. I Felt Weird But Kept Trying. After Going To Treatment Again, It Has Stuck For A Few Months Now.
So There Is Hope!! Cant Do It Alone, Though..
Dust Off, Try It Again.