not looking for sympathy, wanted to be honest
I drank today and I'm feeling sad about the choice. I had 2 beers in the last week and was feeling good about the "moderation". This morning I excercised and then went to the grocery and was feeling really productive and healthy. Then I ended up in the alcohol aisle. I passed the whole wine section and was prepared for the cravings, but then I saw a bottle of Smirnoff Ice. Yum. I bought it and drank it as soon as I got home. Then I finished the last drops of my husbands secret bottle of vodka in the freezer. I'm worried he'll smell it on my breath.
So lay it on thick about me being an alcoholic in denial. I'm so sad, but I don't think I'll change. I just saw a smilie that say's "you're a tool" and I thought it said "you're a FOOL" I thought it was for me.