striving to escape the cage of my soul
I have been suicidal for as long as I can remember. I went through a rough childhood and am still going through a really rough teen life. I am 14 and have tried comitting suicide over 12 times, I am scared of everything. I don't cry, so I cannot release the things i need to anyother way but cutting or drugs. Drugs being cigarettes, lithium, alchohol. But I am not addicted, I just do them when I cannot take anymore. I feel I am alone, no one else here feels the way I do, and sometimes that is tougher then you think, within a small community one person can be alone, and it makes everything different. I have read this before and when you have a personal experience with it, nothing helps, not even something as encouraging as this. Thankyou for the encouragement, maybe I just needed to see it again.