You don't have to get the crack for the guy, you don't need to get the crack for the guy, you need to do what you can to work your program. All of that crap about being a loser and not being able to be honest is simply an excuse. You are not a loser nor are you incapable of being honest. Pray, call your sponsor, go to different meeting do something. You can do this, it is just going to take a little discipline.
I will remember you in prayer.
Scott