Vic!!!!!
You DO NOT need to be getting some guy some crack! Just because he is willing to screw up his life doesn't mean you have to. You know what to do. Get to the meetings, call your sponsor (RIGHT NOW!), and pray your a$$ off!! You ARE NOT incapable of being honest. That is a cop-out. You don't have to use....You don't have to use....You don't have to use!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry to be so harsh, but I have to admit, some of what I really wanted to say was much harsher!!! I just care about you and know you can do this thing. People like that are always going to be around. You just have to let your HP be stronger than them.