You know I don't know I really don't! I have been doing so damn well the last 16 days. Haven't even really thought about using. Now a guy at the meeting came up to me and wants me to go get him 1/2 ounce of crack on Friday. OMG, that is all that I have on my mind now. It is like I can not wait until Friday.
WTF, I am just screwed I guess. Maybe I am constitutionally incapable of being honest. Now come Friday I will have 21 days clean. And now I am willing to give that up for one night of getting high. Hell with that much crack I could die. I guess I don't know how to do this deal. I guess I am just a damn looser yep that is me.
