thanks for all of the support. I was so close to going to buying the bottle, but I ended up hanging out with a friend who has been 20 years clean. The urge is still here of course, but I might not use today..
CarolD:
This is what I did today, 7:00 a.m. Played guitar for an hour and a half, did some graphic design work, 2 hours( i need to brush up in a few areas) played more guitar 1 hour. Then played drums, 40 minutes. Planted some new plants in my backyard. 1.5 hours. went online, 2 hours, went to dinner party(stayed clean) that is it for today. I had a productive day, I guess?? I just wish I was not sooooo bored with myself, but what is ever enough... ???? I probably sound like an idiot, but you asked.. ha
uughhh.... have a good night everyone.