JT,
I'm laughing because after I posted that I could hear you in my thoughts saying Acceptance is the key. I'll try to figure out how to accept this. I do still feel that I have the power to save him from death. I know I don't have the power to save him from his disease. I know I don't have the power over his recovery. I've learned powerlessness in a lot of areas.
Saving my son from death is making me a prisoner to his disease or should I say a prisoner to my disease.
Hugs,
MG