Pernell,
I can accept jail and institution, but I can't accept death. How would one go about learning to accept such a horrible possibility. I think if it were a physical disease it would be horrible to accept, but at least I would be sure that it was completely out of my control. I think that the hard thing about accepting this kind of death possiblility would be always thinking that there was something I could have done to keep him alive. "If I had just let him live with me he would be alive today." I think this is where my denial comes in to play. I'm just not sure how though.
Hugs,
MG