day 33 is just too much!!!!
Hello,
I hope everyone is doing ok today. This is day 33 and I am just starting to become unraveled, just ready to drink and drug. I have spoken with the sponsor, went to the meetings. I think the reality of being alone,sober, and jobless(going on lot's interviews though.) is just really sinking in. I just keep thinking, this is it?? this sucks!!! how is this way of life better? But when I really think about it, I know it is, but it just sucks and is very hard to maintain.With alcohol and drugs I can temporarily escape these feelings. On a positive note, this is the longest I have stayed sober in about 2 years. I just want to get a bottle and not call the sponsor, or NA friends, I guess I don't want anyone to talk me out of it. boy, messed up!!!!! Anyway, you guys and girls are the coolest, I would post more, but I am the neophyte at this. thanks.