Originally Posted by denny57
I asked why can't you? How about why won't you? Why won't you let it be? I'm not telling you to, I'm asking you why you won't? What are you hoping will happen?
I don't know why I won't. It's not something that is not conscious to me yet. I've figured out a lot through my counselor.....my mind is not a hundred percent clear yet.
I have no answer....just a bunch of words that would sound like excuses. But trust me when I say I am definately harder on myself than anyone else could be. I'm not happy with the choice I made.
Regardless of whatever anyone may think, I honestly
am trying. I know it's not healthy for me or my kids. I'm doing the best I can.