Losing control is the worst part about the meth..it is devastating. I knew better with my addictive personality. Again we like it so much that we believe that we can still entertain the thought of being able to control it before it controlls us. I did not use meth for 15 years and one day got ahold of some and POWWWWWWWW. Guess what.
2 years wrecked everything I worked for and loved. People like us must have something to do at all times ...Being productive and creative all the time to satisfy . or we get off track so easy. Its been 2 years now clean and sober and am back on my feet moving forward again. Why at my age I still want to run with the devil is beyond me . But I do like where Im at and will continue .