Today I reached out to a couple of the members of the AA group here in town and both asked me if I was going to play the bingo tonight and said that they were going to try their luck. I'm confused right now as a result. Here I am at step one and at the same time thinking WTF are they thinking? They're in worst shape than me?! How weird is that? Oh God, take my hand and lead me away from this sickness!! Cross my heart I'm thinking that I'm okay now yet I know I'm not?! How pitiful!
For those who have gambled, know how I feel and have some 'freedom from gambling' time...I would so much like to know how you got from a to b to c in your recovery from gambling. What was the in between like? What did you do? The very basics...that's all I'm asking for! I'm not seeking an emotional high - I'm seeking freedom from gambling. It's obvious that I'm not doing something right.