Originally Posted by twmbadeb
I hate him I resent him.
I also agree that you are where you are supposed to be right now. Change in ourselves does not happen like a lightning bolt. It takes time. For me, as long as I was still in the "hate and resent" mindset, I had a hard time seeing the good stuff. You have recognized these feelings and that is great. Allow yourself to feel them and don't try to stuff them. One day, after they have run their course, you will begin to feel better. You may even forgive him, or not, but you will feel better. Sometimes we just have to slog through the muck to get to that better place.
Best wishes on your journey.
L