The emptiness and the questioning...is this all there is?
Till I started seeking a relationship with God, I had those feelings and questions.
What I found in God was a perfect parent that shows me how to do things. The imperfect way I was treated as a child, I knew it wasn't something I liked but I didn't truly know what belonged in the space that is called proper. No example to follow till I looked toward God.
A God shaped empty hole inside me was only filled by seeking God.