Hope,
I've learned to not hate my addictions anymore. They are a part of who I am. It's hard for me to not hate myself. I found that hating the addictions just made me hate myself even more. You have your addictions for a reason and they can teach you an awful lot. I know it sounds weird but I feel like my addiction was a privledge I was given for some odd reason. Yea, IT SUCKS, BUT, I would not be half the person I am today had I not gone through the stuff I had. Not too mention met the people I have met. I wouldn't be in therapy and I may be just as sick as some people I know who never had an addiction. In some ways my addiction has taught me to be one of the healthiest people (In some ways) that I know.
I wouldn't have sought out the knowledge and information about life, myself and others if I hadn't had an addiction. I know to some it will sound stupid and moronic but I look at my e.d. and the meth as a blessing.
I'm crazy I know. But just another way of looking at it. ;-)