5:30... I have an appt. at 6 but one I believe my assistant could handle as long as I called my client and let it be known I was being 'pulled away from the office'.
*Deep breath* This is the kind of meeting
Discussion/Participation, It Works Study, Step, Tradition
Sounds like a good one to start with. I'll have my 10 bucks in my pocket for the book.
God, I thought this amounted to not taking a pill. It is soooo much more than that. I have to learn how to be clean. Learning to be an addict was easy enough. Learning to reverse the damage will probably take twice as long as my addiction so Im looking at at least a 20 yr plan.
I am going to plan my work and work my plan. Do the best I can with what I've got. Ignore the PAWS that is such a trigger for me (cuz of the chills).
And well, just be damned proud I didnt use yesterday, hadnt used today and wont, with Gods help, use tomorrow. Looking at it from a lifetime stand point is just too much right now. Besides, I could get hit by a bus next week. God forbid, but at least I'd leave this earth clean and sober to stand before my Lord.