Dalejen
Please just try to rest at your friend's house--and talk with her when you need comfort, support--or are just feeling so mixed-up. You will feel bewildered and lost for awhile...and the period of grieving will be sad...and hard. It's a time we all have to get through when we lose someone we love. And, it would have been at least a bit easier for you if his friends had been able to hold a memorial, where all your memories could be shared. We all need to talk about the person we've loved--and to "celebrate" them.
So--please try to share your memories with your friend...and with us, when you're back home. With deep grief...it takes a long time to heal and feel emotionally stable again...so, be patient....allow yourself to feel whatever you're feeling.....be "good" to yourself and try to just flow with all those emotions that will be crashing in on you for awhile. You WILL begin to feel better...and, in time, all the joyful memories you have of Dale will be a little less painful to recall..and will be of great comfort to you.
Take care....and our warmest wishes go with you. Please write to us whenever you feel you can.
Lynn :-)