What a great post..it really took me back..my experience was different but who knows .....when I was doing heroin for five years I used and manipulated everyone around me...It was not until EVERY person I loved had either died ( my mom and brother) or locked their door that I got desperate enought o reach out for help..I have often felt jealous of people who have their families support but in my case they were only helping me prolong the inevitable crash at the bottom that I was headed for..literally..i had a horrible car wreck in my new rig ...WITH my four year old son onboard!!! I thought if I got that new ride things would be defferent too..I was right on that..I ended up in prison..on my wayt o recovery ...fianally!! I feel sad alot I have no family ...but I have you guys..and I am in awe of those of you with caring families that love you and truly care...I pray your loved one comes around..before they truly so end up alone...northbelle