**************{Jewel}}}}}}}}
I don't have any great words of wisdom for you, I sure wish I did. I have seen them take my hubby to jail a few times, I've seen him at some very low points in his life. I would say in the beginning, "Why me?" "Why is this happening to me?" "How can I go on?"
I think finally down the road I realized, it wasn't happening to me unless I let it happen to me. These terrible things were happening to him, his life to lead whether good or bad and I had no control over him. I do have control over me though. So I have learned to "detach". I am not perfect at it but over time I have gotten better.
So what I can say, is take care of you. There is nothing you can do to control what your son uses or does. My dad once told me, "God takes care of drunks and children." I believe he does.
I know you are angry and in pain and you have every right to be so. I also know you care what happens to your son but maybe this happened for a reason. Maybe this is the kick he needs to find his way to recovery.
Please take care of you!! You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
Tons of hugs to you!
Love,
Debbie