M,
I am glad you didn't head for the hills.....
I don't blame myself for my son's suicide,....but it is easy to hate that he was in so much pain and so hopeless...and I wonder how I contibuted to that. Or what I coulda, woulda, shoulda done.
My counselor would like to see those words taken out of our vocabulary...coulda, woulda, shoulda....
They are useless words, all we can deal with is what is.
Jt, thank you for the gentleness.
Before we can forgive ourselves, we have to name what our percieved error is/was.
Bring it to the light of day to examine...and the sunshine shine through.
live