I went to AA for back problems. Everyone was on my back. Coming into AA, I thought it was the alcohol. Turns out it was the guy drinking the alcohol. We drink because we don't like who we are, where we are or the people and places around us.417 in the 4th printing of the Big Book we have to learn to accept our present state.
Sounds like you have a dry drunk syndrome. I stopped drinking but, I have to change who Iwas to be a healthy person
I'd go to a few meetings try several meetings open meetings and women only meetings.