I couldn't help but think that sounds like prison slang. "drop dirty". It's a day most of us come to when we find out we have to start thinking with our head instead of our heart. I think some people work harder at trying to cheat at recovery than actually working a program. When the vocabulary in a relationship requires an inmate to interpret it, it's time to put aside the heart. However hard, consider what "drop dirty" means instead of how it makes you feel. Can you tel us what testing positive on a drug or alcohol test would mean in your life?