Peke - no need to apologise, ofcourse we understand ❤️. External circumstances such as advbike mentioned with dreary weather etc can impact us, plus i know that you have also had a traumatuc childhood and no matter how much healing we do we carry that with us. That can feel burdensome sometimes but we also carry a bright light within us. Whilst sometimes that light dims a little under the darkness, it never fails in burning bright again. We don't need to be a dazzling star all day every day, the fact that despite our hardships we still shine on makes us superstars, and hey even super heroes need a day off 🤣. As long as that doesn't involve alcohol etc your doing great!
Anyway, its wonderful to hear that you are taking it easier today. Maybe spoil yourself with some extra self care, whatever that looks like for you. Sending well wishes for an improved mood.
It's the easter long weekend here, taking my son out for a meal and a movie, always an enjoyable time. Best wishes all ❤️.