Hi Toddy I could of written your post myself it's exactly how I am. A lot of the reason I drank to shut my flipping head off and chill out.
I do a lot of physical stuff so don't want to keep having to be busy and running around to keep occupied. This is definitely a learning curve for me to I really struggle with switching my mind off to do any relaxation. I'm starting with full body stretches and it is helping hopefully leading to more relaxation style activities. I will say it's a lot easier for me now than it was I'm 148 days today but if you find a miracle cure could you let me know