Being still.
This is something I've always struggled with. I'm fine so long as I'm busy but as soon as I stop I find it difficult to just "be"
I believe this is one of the main reaaons I'm an addict. At 14 I started using Cannabis and I instantly loved how it made me enjoy just being by myself. It turned into a full blown addiction very quickly and since then I've been through pretty much every drug there is, all with the same, compulsive consumption.
In recovery I find myself filling time pretty well, I love cycling, walking the dog, cooking... I even enjoy housework! Anything that provides some sense of accomplishment or purpose. But I dont think it's very healthy to always "need" something. As soon as I sit down I'm straight on my phone, again, my phone use is an attempt at not being with my thoughts, trying to block things out, and it becomes compulsive.
I think I'll always be someone who likes to keep busy, and I'm happy with that. But I would like to be able to be happily still at times too.
So, any tips on how to get better at being calm, peaceful and still??
Day 61 sober.
Thanks!