Originally Posted by
fishkiller 
I'm realising how emotionally sensitive I am but I'm also starting to realise that how I react to things is actually in my control- toddy
BAM!
That realization right there helped me more than I can explain. I always blamed others, circumstances, the universe etc but once I realized all these things will happen no matter how I react and that I could react in a positive, healthy way and not the same destructive way I had been it changed everything.
Not always easy I admit but it's much easier than following the same destructive path I had been on.
Life is hard but it's so much harder when we are stuck in our old drunken ways.
Thanks Fishkiller. It feels empowering to take full responsibility for every element of life. When I drink I get very stuck in a negative loop of resentment and blame which just enables more drinking, its a viscous cycle. I suppose its a kind of miss guided form of self protection but it actually has the opposite effect. It's more like self harm!