I think that you will always be the kind and empathetic person you are, now, dear Peke, just possibly a little less of what I was always told I was—oversensitive.
And hey, I am still oversensitive, just yesterday, for example, but these days, I don't dwell on things the way I used to; I pick myself up and move on.
But that took time, love, a long time, in fact.
I am only just growing up, maturing into an adult, SO LATE, but all of the years I drank stunted me, or rather, helped me to run from life.
And once I started facing things sober, I realised that I didn't know how to deal with a lot of things because so much of life was new to me.
My early days of sobriety were horrendous, especially after my relapse in 2014. It took 11 days before I could even stop crying and a month before I could go to a mall without having a panic attack.
And there was a lot to deal with—I had made a massive mess in every part of my life. There were some things I could never fix, so I worked on the things I could fix and the things I could change, and slowly began to feel better about myself.
I am a work in progress, doing my best one day at a time, sometimes messing up and sometimes achieving great things.
Suze xx ❤️