Originally Posted by
Catastrophe 
Toughest times of my life are being at like 3:30AM after multiple nights of not being able to sleep and knowing I could just walk to the kitchen, pick up a bottle, and stop feeling that way temporarily.
I'm sure things get better. I lost absolutely everything, though.
Things will get better. People are going to offer all kinds of help on SR but here is step one. You need to venture into the kitchen and pour the bottle(s) down the drain. If you are really serious about quitting you don't need that sitting around to tempt you. It has been three days you say? You have reached the point where the first drink is your choice. Lets start with the choice to be rid of that temptation.