Congrats Sudz, eleven years is awesome!!!
I’ve got six years myself with no fear of returning.
I agree that often one asks for help when they want the negative consequences from drinking to go away. That is not enough in my experience. Once we start to feel better, we start bargaining and romanticizing, soon we’re back to drinking. One needs to be willing to give up that sweet pleasure as well as the bad stuff. It was when I accepted that I will never drink again & enjoy that sweet release, that my sobriety stuck.