Argh, I am thinking maybe I am not ready for this right now. I already screwed up. I am feeling like a fraud. I say I want to quit, then I can't resist the first temptation I come across. I found a bottle of wine in the garage and I drank it. I resisted it for about 5 hours and I couldn't stop thinking about it and actually I think I drank it just to "get it over with" or something. I don't know. Maybe I need to reevaluate this whole thing.
