things will take a long time to sort themselves out. You need to do what is right for you at this time. The family are rather like a mobile and you are the centre, if you wobble so does everything else, once you are a bit more confident things will re adjust and will settle too...
It just takes time sweetheart so hang in there and stay close to SR and your AA buddies..
All is well
Love to you and yours
Purrddyyxxx