This is a before picture and then a picture 3 years clean. I don't really have a hard time looking at the old pictures because they remind me of how horrible my life was and just how far I have come. I am grateful that I have all the old pictures. They are a gift to help me never forget what my bottom was like. That is just me though. Also, I don't keep them out where I can look at them all the time. Just when I need a reminder. Maybe you could go get a new drivers liscense.