The idea that you have to doing something - whether it's weed, alcohol, vapes or smoking is pure addictive voice.
I'd talk to your sponsor David.
I also think you should take a breath and try and relax
Your decision wasn't ideal but don't turn mistakes into bigger ones.
I also think there are different kinds of drugs - there are drugs we misuse and then there are meds that help us live a more or less normal life.
Don't throw the baby out with the bathwater as they say.
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