HI Zilla and welcome I can tell you one thing you have already stated you have a problem you have realized you drink to much and cant stop. Also I have been to almost every state and alot of countries and AA is everywhere i have been to AA meetings where there where more people at the meeting than lived in the town so you need to see where a meeting is if your serious there is one there I promise you. usually you can find imformation in the newspaper, if that doesnt work the police dept or sherriffs office usually can tell you.(I'd suggest if you stop by these you do it sober)lol well good luck and i will add you to my prayer list. Aaron