Like Farrier, I’d say I was a “light” drinker. I’ve learned not to give any specific figures as other people can latch on to such data and use it to justify their own drinking. However, I was without a doubt dependent on alcohol every evening. If I didn’t drink (rarely), I missed it like crazy, got fidgety and wouldn’t be able to sleep. Someone on another forum whose spouse died of liver disease from drinking tried to shoot me down for drinking “so little”. Absurd. It was controlling my life, and when I finally quit I got my life back.
Cerd, I’m afraid to say you have a problem with alcohol. Maybe read some of the success stories on here. You’ve reached the stage where alcohol isn’t an occasional pleasure anymore and never will be again for you.