Its wierd isnt it, I am arecovering alcoholic of five years. I had a very troubled past too. My husband stood by me and watched me destroy myself with alcohol. He tried everything to stop me. I n the end he got on his knees and begged me to stop. I will never forget that day. In a moment of clarity I saw waht I had done. the black rings around his eyes, the hollow cheeks adn the tears. This was my knight in shining armour! The man who provided a wonderful home and two georgus children. This was the man who has loved me like no other person on this planet could.
Within a few weeks I had phoned AA and started my recovery.
That was nearly 5 years ago. there is nothing I have done during those drinking days that I have not aknowledged in a AA meeting. I will never forget the look in his eyes.
He and the kids were the reason i stopped drinking. Slowly I have realised its for me too.
I would never have had the staying power to live with me, I would have given up years before.
I can empathise with alcoholics, I love recovering alcoholics. I would not choose to live with an active alcoholic. You wouldnt see me for dust!!!!
It must be gut wrenching for you watching the person you love destroy themselves. They say in AA that the alcoholic has to go so low even to the point where they lose EVERYTHING before they seek help.
Sometimes they never seek help.
I know that when i was drinking all I cared about was ME ME ME. I was lucky enough to have had that few moments of clarity....
That moment of clarity may never come. But for some it does and it changes your life forever.
I hope it all works out right for you.
Love and blessings to you and yours
Purrddyyyxxxxxx