i just registered,i own my own resteraunt,dont have time do drive to meetings,but i realize how helpful it could be to talk to others who have substance abuse issues,and hopefully find someone who can tell me that at some point soberness will make me happy again.i have no idea how my body is supposed to feel,my mind,my mood???everytime i get off the stuff,i am miserable for weeks and eventually give in to the urge to be back to normal?