Thanks for the quick response and support! What does me in though, is that right now my drinking doesn't really affect anyone but myself. I'm one of those functioning alcoholics. I only drink at night, it's my dirty little secret. I wake up in the morning and I'm not even hungover (drinking copious amounts helps build up that immunity!).
Okay, I just thought about things a bit. I have a boyfriend who is totally oblivious to my drinking. If I think back though, any fights we've ever had occured when I was blotto, me nitpicking things, getting mad at him for no reason, getting all sad-ass weepy over stuff. So I guess this isn't only affecting me.
I'm glad I found this place. I might not be ready to give it up yet, but you've already got me thinking.